Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Plans and Reflections
Wow. I feel so out of the loop with homeschooling right now. Before we moved two-and-a-half weeks ago, we took a few days off to hit the packing hard. Then, the week after we moved, we took a not-so-relaxing spring break settling in. Last week we did lots of running to and from standardized testing, yesterday we had CC commitments, and today we had a fun day with friends. It's been a working vacation from normal school, for sure! I am really looking forward to being home tomorrow with a focus on school--not unpacking, cleaning, or planning for anything else. I can only take so much erranding around before I start to feel worn thin. I love to be home, and need to be home to make it 'run'. Do you find that, too?
The Lord has been convicting me lately about a specific sin in my life. I was discussing this today with my lovely friend Tara. She expressed how hard it is, but how good it is, when the Lord shows us some ugliness in our hearts. So true. I am seeing, by God's grace, how I tend to rush my children, not really take the time to listen to them; how my schedule, productivity, order, and peace are often idols in my heart. Ah--it makes me tear up to think of the times lately that I have put off a child needing my undivided attention because I was too busy with 'more important' things. Lord, thank you for revealing this area of sin in my life. Please help me to die to my own desires, to tear down those idols that hurt my loved ones and displease You.
Will you pray for me? How can I pray for you?